17-T.6.1

Unit 6. Open your heart. Track 6 .1

Hey everyone. In today's programme, we are going to talk about things that were kept quiet

up to now. Nikki, what do you want to say about your relationship with your father?

About that relationship, I can say that, well, um, I wish I had understood more about my

relationship with my father. I wish somebody had helped me and informed me about how to react

to love. I think I could have changed some of what happened. I could have prepared myself

for life without him. But I didn't. Because my dad left when I was 15, I somehow learned

how to fill in his absence. I have many regrets about that relationship. Okay, I expected to

be left behind, but I was trying to find a way not to confront or accept those feelings

of loneliness and abandonment. Nothing can cure those heartaches now. I still feel the sorrow

in my heart whenever I think about it, so I try not to. Once, he called and tried to

talk to me, but I didn't say even a word about my feelings because I didn't want to

deepen my pain. I was walking on air. I mean, I felt extremely happy because he called, but

sometimes it is hard to express your trune.